Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Our first Christmas without Jack

Well I have been dreading this time of year ever since we lost Jack. But somehow we managed to make it through.
This time last year was filled with excitement and happiness. We had just announced to everyone that we were expecting, so of course it was our best Christmas ever. And this year was our worst Christmas ever. Two such extremes in such a short time.
We were expecting little Jack to be crawling around the Christmas tree, pulling pressies apart and having a wonderful time this christmas, but instead he is in heaven, where hopefully he was spoiled rotten!
I got some wonderful presents in memory of Jack. One is a statue of a lady holding a baby and it is called "Angel of Mine", my husband gave me this and I couldnt have asked for a more beautiful present.
I also got a bracelet from my husband's family that has Jack's name on it, it is absolutely gorgeous.

I am looking forward to the New Year with hope. Hopefully it will be a better year for us both. Hopefully we will have a little brother or sister on the way for Jack.
But it also brings closer the 1st anniversary of Jacks birth/death. I cant beleive it is only 5 months away, it feels just like yesterday that we had to say goodbye.

Merry Christmas to you little Jack

Love Mummy and Daddy x0x0


  1. The angel is beautiful and I love the bracelet. I am so sorry for your loss. Wishing you a peaceful 2010. xo

  2. I'm so sorry for your loss.

    We lost our little girl Matilda at the start of November and I haven't really put myself in any social situations for the reasons you describe. I can feel my friends censoring themselves around me and while I want them too because I can't handle hearing a lot of things, it changes our relationships.

    Hope 2010 brings you good things.

    Maddie x

  3. *HUGE hugs* mama - I too have one angel daughter born in October 2008, called Josie. We now are expecting another little girl, due any fay, we've named Isobella. I know how it is to be on this road... Just sending you love, and light on this journey. XxXxX

  4. my mom gave me that same willow tree statue. i love it too. so beautiful.

    i'm sorry about your sweet baby jack. it sounds like you might have been due around the same time as me. i know i was in the late 20s/early 30s weeks in may like you. i was due august 7 and my baby died july 30. im sorry we're on this journey together.

  5. Here via Birni's blog and so sorry for the loss of your beautiful boy, Jack. Our fifth child, George, was full-term stillborn on May 19th and so my heart goes out to you as another babyloss mother. Thinking of you. The gifts you were given in memory of Jack are just beautiful. (((Hugs)))

  6. First, I am very sorry for your loss it is totally heartbreaking

    Second, I am glad to have found your blog and look forward to hearing what you have to say over coming months. I hope you find much support from online community as I have done.

    I love some of the things you have to remember Jack. These things take on such a special meaning when they are all you have and are part of the healing process. I did a similar post of Christmas Day showing some of the things my wife and I have done in memory of Abigail.

    I hope you find many more such things in the year ahead. The statue is amazing.

    May 2010 be peaceful and with more sunshine than rain for you!

  7. I am so sorry for the loss of your precious Jack.
    I found your blog through Birni's blog.This was my first christmas without my babies so i know how hard it is but it the things that you were given in memory of Jack are beautiful. I love the willow tree statues.
    If you ever need someone to talk to feel free to email me. My email is

  8. I am here via Birni's blog too.

    I am so sorry little Jack isn't in your arms where he belongs.

    I am so sorry.


  9. I found you through Birni's blog as well. I am so sorry that your precious Jack is not safely in your arms where he belongs.

  10. I'm sorry that Jack isn't here this Christmas. I am hoping for a better year with 2010-one without heartache.

  11. Wishing you a new year filled with peace, hope, and healing. <3